PaSSioN *-*

I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing

- Agatha Christie -

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes. Ups and downs today. I was pretty pissed off when i saw my add maths marks. I couldn't believe that once again, I FAILED. I felt as though the planet was shaking, the whole world was sinking. I didn't want to fail again. This is my last year schooling. I don't want even a single red in my report card. But there again, it looks like I'm fated to fail. I really couldn't handle additional mathematics. It's really driving my crazy. I feel like giving up, but there again, I'll think of my parents, that always feel that i have the potential. What now? Am I studying for them or myself? But there again, I don't feel like giving up. Gosh! I'm in a dilemma. Can someone lend me a hand? Then, I made a decision. I decided to not give up and start doing exercises everyday. I'm going to have a private tutor --- the smart ass sitting beside me :) hopefully I'll improve and score higher marks during the March examination. Cheer for me people! Go Eileen! YOU KNOW YOU CAN!
* JUST STOP BLOGGING AND FACEBOOK-ING AND I 'M SURE YOU CAN!
Go GO GO!!!

- Eileen -

I've been neglecting my blog nowadays because i realised that blogging is actually a waste of time~ So yeah, gonna tell you about my same-old-routine AGAIN.

I was not feeling well for the past few days, couldn't sleep well at night, because of the damn flu that really, irritates me. For once, I felt like chopping off my nose! was damn agitated >.< Thank God the flu attacked me only on Friday, or I'll be suffering throughout my papers :)
Reached home around 6pm on Friday, earlier than the usual days of course xD because I skipped my Chemistry tuition class , couldn't stop sneezing for the whole day. Didn't even take my bath, and the bed was my only desire :)
Slept from 7pm till 6am the next morning. Felt so much better when I woke up early in the morning. If only, IF ONLY... I could continue my slumber, I think I'll be fully recover by Sunday. Too bad, gotta force myself up to go for a drilling practice or what they call it 'a camp'. A few trainers were there to train us.
Yeah, I used up at least 8 packets of pocket tissues, where each packet contains 10 pieces...so its like 10 x 8 = 80? LOL, it was also pretty embarassing to blow your nose like once every 10 minutes in front of all the trainers and campers... I wonder how red my nose was on that day xD and I think the trainer didn't want to come near me, afraid that i might spread the germs to him? LOL!
Went back home at 5pm and rested for an hour. After that, parents brought us to Kajang to eat some spicy dishes and mom said it was for the sake of my running nose. Lol...hoped it really did help xD everything taste nothing to me though... my sisters were sweating non-stop, but something was really wrong with my taste bud! I don't feel ANYTHING! weird right? I didn't know when you have a runny nose, you can't taste whether the food is spicy or not.
Looks like it didn't really help much xD Went to my dad's karaoke after that, stayed a few hours singing there :)
Reached home, the first thing to do is ---- SLEEP :)

Today, Exam FINALLLY ended! haha....the computer class was almost full today, with all the 5 Akikians and some 5 Intanians xD had a wonderful time crapping with them =P

May Koon's birthday today!!! Sadly, she said i wasn't the first one to wish her yesterday at 12 midnight! I messaged her a few minutes earlier ad lo...still, I'm not the first one! ISHHHH...nevermind, SOMEONE was the first one ...SOMEONE ...* ahem ahem xD
* Lee May Koon, after reading this, I'm SURE you are rejoicing there! LOL!
p/s : I Love You GIRL! and HAppy BIRTHDAY YEAH!

ah~ school starts finally! Firstly, i was anticipating it, then it turned to a word----busy. Now, I'm totally worn out! First day of school itself i was already packing this and that, clearing up things in the renovated prefects room. Not to forget that the prefects meeting is going on after school, i didn't even take my lunch la! Not easy la...i'm waiting for the day where i can fully retire from all these. Second day of school, went to the school hall to help out with the form 1 orientation...teacher told me to introduce myself to the form 1 students. LOL...recall back when i was in form 1...these kids are really small...haha...with chubby face..hehe xD acted like a small kid with them, and started with the ice breaker. I find it very childish, and i can't believe that i was doing all that stuff. But well, form 1 right, gotta do something childish to really grab their precious attention =P Reached home around 5pm and slept at 9pm at night.
3rd day of school...which was today. Reached home around 6.45pm. Why so late? here's the reason. Stayed back for house practice and badan beruniform meeting. It was mesyuarat agung today...was chosen to be the secretary for both rumah sukan and badan beruniform. Lol..what la...became a MISS SU ad...can't i just have a break? Again, I'm waiting for the day to arrive. I really cannot imagine the number of words i need to write this year. Just pray and hope that, no more secretary post please!
So, that's all for today. And oh yeah! I spotted someone at the LRT station today! haha...*you know who you are, i know you'll read this xD*

On the way back home while i was in the public bas, a drunked man came up and everyone was running away because of his terrible smell ! He fell on some of the passengers and they were so angry of him. I was so afraid that he may vomit anytime in the bus....luckily he didn't...or the bus driver will be chasing after him xD haha...

That's all~

* life is like an onion, you peel it off one layer by one layer, sometimes you weep.

Parents were not in for the past few days as they went to Eupore for vacation. 5 of us stayed at home and settled everything all by ourselves. Well, pretty tough isn't it? We ransacked the whole house and the day before they came back, we did some clearing up xD (just to show that we can still handle ourselves eventhough they were not in...) right, this is what we call INDEPENDANT :) . Mom was always saying that we are inmature, irresponsible, always rely on the maid...what else? lol, i couldn't be listing them all down in my blog, its kinda humiliating right? Oh yeah, for that past few days, we don't have a maid. Therefore, we gotta do all the washing, cleaning, ironing and oh yeah, COOKING. We took turns to cook, and we ordered pizza, KFC and Mcdonald sometimes. When we are too lazy, we'll just settle our meals with maggie mee. Lol...very unhealthy la...

Before they went to Europe, I told my mom that i will be going for tuition on december and she said it was fine. After discussing with my dad, she decided not to let me go as they will not be in and they don't want any of us to leave the house. Aiks....i wasn't quite happy that time. But later on, she came out with a decision, she'll ask my dad's driver to send me there and send me back. Lol...I don't quite like it...I feel like being guarded. But my sisters were grounded...isn't that worse still? At least I can walk around petaling street during break time right XD Oh yeah, there's a price to pay for going out, I need to buy my sisters dinner everytime I go for tuition. Wee :) I don't really mind la...just that its a bit , a bit only, ----troublesome----- xD

After 10 days of vacation, my parents came back. Glad that they reach home safely. yeah, I was thinking about the souvenirs too xD My 2 elder sisters got 1 pair if boots each. My youngest sister got a pair of crocs, a pair of clogs from Holland, Amsterdant, and a shirt. Sadly, my parents couldn't find the other luggage when they arrived KLIA. Me and my the other sister's branded sports shoes were in that luggage. It was a BAD news! My shoes...but...after a few days, the airport from Switzerland sent back the luggage to our house xD (patutlah..the airport's mistake right...) haha...I got my sports shoes...FINALLY! yay! It was nice and I like it!

okay...that's all about the vacation. Now, lets talk about today.

Went to St. Mary today as a kitchen helper...lol...supposed to be one of the campers, but ended up, helping in the kitchen. Every year, I'll go for this Girls' Christian Camp that is held annually at SMK St. Mary. And i'm supposed to attend the camp this year too. But, I didn't have the urge to go this year, was bored with the same routine every year. Went there and helped out today, met this guy, named Ivan, lol...I've finally found another guy who brings tissue

paper around with him all the time JUST IN CASE xD and he loves the kitchen=P haha...rare species right? hmmm...and i found out this little girl, who has skin allergy. She cannot take any salt, sugar or seasoning. So basically, the food she eats is always tasteless...pathetic right? felt so sorry for her....so we gotta prepare her food separately. Met some of my old friends there. I think i will not miss the camp next year already. xD Anyway, it was a busy day today in the kitchen =P Tomorow going for youth christmas party=P Tata~

Phew~ Everything has come to an end! Thank God! Finals over...and i only have one more day in school. Then, it'll be the end of my form 4 life xD What a year! Basically, I screwed up some of the papers. Wouldn't say all, but most of it...Especially add maths and sejarah, they are pretty tough papers...wasn't well prepared for these 2 subjects...well, at least everything was better than mid term's....where i only got a single digit for add maths...hmm...i think i can get at least 50 marks for that paper this time...don't have high expectations xD same goes to history=P

Will be going to Terengganu next Tuesday. Hope that the flooded condition isn't as bad as what was reported on the news. Guess its getting better right....hope so...The best part going there is I'll be staying in a resort. Surf the net for some pictures of the resort, Primula Beach Resort, and find it quite a nice place to stay..That's also one of the reason i decided to go xD and bare in mind...5 days 4 nights and its FOC! worth it right? Sister is having her spm on the 18th of Nov, i'll be leaving on the 17th...coming back on the 21st. Will not be around to give her moral support during that few days, but I'll pray for her everyday. I promise. I think SPM its really something torturing right? its duration is like around 1 month. I had 2 weeks of exam for finals and i was seriously exhausted on the last day until i decided to skip ******* *****...lol...later i kena kantoi from my mom..the schedule for finals was so pack that i barely able to breathe! Inadequate sleep everyday....sleeping on the floor every night as i was studying till midnight...nvm nvm...what was done has already done...for the time being, i'll just relax and do whatever i like. Anyway, straight away after finals, when i reached home, i started packing all my scattered books on the floor ...or else mom will be nagging again...packed my cupboard, my study table and put all the unwanted papers a side for recycle....and it stacked up as high as my sister's height...lol...
okay...that was basically what happened during finals and after finals....guess its time to go now =P
Toodles~
p/s : I'm waiting to watch 2012 and new moon!

Yeah! As you can see now, I'm anticipating the holidays! But WAIT! I'm NOT DONE with my finals yet! Lots of stuff to do! Lots of books to read! Sister did badly in her SPM trials. Mom scolded her upside down when I was in the midst of a wonderful dream. So, yeah, that's right! i was so freaked out that I got up and took a bath. While I was still BLUR, i heard mom saying that 'Eileen will be the next victim!' with a furious tone. Yup! That was the sentence that made me decided to get up from my lovely bed. 'See la, if she fail again for any of her subjects, she's going to get it from me!', she continued. Well, that was pretty scary. I got up UNwillingly and bathe. After that, took my physics reference book and started the revision. Let's skip the process. I took only 15 minutes to doze off =.= Pro right? I just woke up man! After a few days of physics revision, i proceeded to biology revision. Well, biology is much more better than physics. At least i didn't fall asleep halfway through. xD



I actually decided to make FULL use of the 4 days deepavali holidays. Unfortunately, I had a very terrible sore throat during the holidays. Damn angry. No mood to study. I was suffering for the past 5 days and all I can do was to SLEEP. (sleeping was the only way to prevent myself from suffering. Not to bare the consequences when I'm awake...my throat was burning!) Couldn't really study la that past few days...

I'm forcing myself to study really hard recently. Having group study with the GOOD students in class really helped me a lot. They are well prepared and they can even answer all my questions. Thanks to Sook Ching, Hoe Yee and Ka Yan who really helped me out^^ I'm starting to develop my interest in history. I guess Hui Xia also xD haha...Gotta try my best to finish everything by next week. FINALS is just around the corner!
ADD MATHS..PHYSICS...CEMISTRY...BIOLOGY...HISTORY...Oh no! So much more to cover!
Well, I have a special way to study now...although its NOT healthy at all. Everyday after coming back from school around 3pm, I'll rest and sleep for 4 hours. After that, take a bath and study from 7.30pm till 2.30am. Then, sleep. I think that's the best for me as I couldn't get myself focus in the afternoon.

This will be my last blog until finals over. Will soon post some pictures I took during my mom's birthday^^

Toodles~

I'M BORED! SITTING AT HOME, FACING THE COMPUTER + NOBODY TO CHAT WITH!

So, I decided to post something here!

It was terrible yesterday...really terrible, and I didn't like it. I HATE IT!

I'm wondering : When you love someone, isit hard to sacrifice for that someone, eventhough that someone didn't really spend much his/her time with you?

My answer : I don't know...i seriously don' t know. Its hard to say.

But, I love them and I really hope for the best...THE BEST! I was very depressed yesterday midnight....VERY! He is one of the most important person in my life...and I can't bare to see him suffering like this....I heart him and I heart her also...but its tiring. I'm glad that i found the key. I'm GLAD....really...haihz...

There is nothing I can do. I am sad. I am bored. Suddenly, I thought of this guy...and it cheered me up a little.^^ I'm currently listening to his songs...his comforting voice that comforts me...

The guy that I was talking about....here he is:

Okay...enough of Leehom's Pictures....Its Kim Bum now! xD (lol...i seriously got nothing to do!)

This guy here...can't really sing...he's not a singer but an actor...he's a cutie...don't you think so? Well, I admire him as he has his motto in life : "Making a mistake once is alright, but don't make it twice."

okay....I think that's ALL for today^^

Wanna take a bath and go study liao...finals coming la...

Tata~